"Remember how far you’ve come, not just how far you have to go. You are not where you want to be, but neither are you where you used to be."-Rick Warren (via trudymae)
For the longest time I thought I had OCD. However, once I actually sat down and researched the topic I stumbled across a OCPD and I it was like I was reading something about myself. I have to have things done a certain way or else I have anxiety until its fixed. For example, doing the ad tags at my job take me forever because I have to make them absolutely perfect and lined up properly with the Mylar or else I can tell away from it. Also, my boyfriend will try to make our bed and if the tag of the comforter isn’t at the foot of the bed it will bug me until I fix it. Every little detail has to be looked over when it comes to most things. I swear it’s getting worse. Now I’m even getting super particular with the volume in the car and on my computer. Maybe I’m just going crazy. Eh?
The dreams I have been having lately are really beginning to bother me and bring my mood down. They’re sending me such mixed messages. When it’s not one thing it’s another. Why can’t I just be normal for one minute? Is that too much to ask?
I never gave the summer after high school much thought. I knew it would be to some effect about finding yourself and losing yourself all in one. I knew it would be about adventure, friendship and watching the last chapter of your life gradually coming to an abrupt end. Now that the summer is coming to a close I am reflecting on what has happened the last couple months. Overall the summer of 2012 has been great. It really has. I mean I got to go to New York, Pennsylvania and Warped Tour all for the first time. In the last week reality has been setting in, my friend Erin is getting ready to leave for bootcamp in the next month or so and I am starting college in just two and a half weeks. Also I got a job at Walgreens a couple days ago now I’m anxiously waiting for my drug test to come back so I can start working. My life has done a complete 360 in the last week or so. I mean I have a job, go to college, and I simply couldn’t have asked for more. I’m thankful right now because I know some people don’t have it as good as I do right now. But I count my blessings and know in my heart that I have to fight to keep this job and that’s okay with me because I know it will pay off in the end.